|Thursday, November 10th, 2005|
|i never write in here anymore
i never write in here anymore.
I used to love this thing!
Gabrielle is always on me to write in this thing ha ha
dear Lord where to start!
SOOOO many things going on these days.
I am feeling really happy these days and really good but it is a struggle everyday.
not a struggle to go on or anything like that but a struggle to be myself.
i still have so many people i need to talk to! o man it gets way overwhelming somtimes. It is a bit overwhelming right now. It comes in waves like once every few weeks. Things seem like they are going really good then i realize that my dad and my brother and sister and soooo many other people have no idea what is going on with me and then i get really anxious about it and really nervous too.
I have been keeping a journal that is not open to the public! here at home but somtimes its nice to get feedback on things.
the only constant in my life is Degrassi!
ha ha o man...pathetic i know.
but i mean Marco! damn!
Gabrielle knows what im talking about!
hm ok well maybe ill try writing in this thing more. It is nice to just write stuff down day to day
-Pat Current Mood: discontent
|Thursday, October 27th, 2005|
|Tuesday, October 11th, 2005|
So Degrassi is basically the greatest show ever. When Gabrielle first told me about it i thought it was one of her Otaku antics... i was wrong.
|Thursday, September 8th, 2005|
i love Tegan and sara! their new CD is amazing.
i know they have been around for a bit but i just got on the bandwagon. Current Mood: distressed
|Sunday, March 27th, 2005|
|update for real
well well well,
It is long been time that i needed to update.
I would post more but there is N O T H I N G to post about. Really i am still working at the same smoothie place i have been working at for the past year and I was so ready to quit but things have gotten a lot better. Even though i am still getting minimum wage!
It also looks like i am going to Japan this summer!!!!!!! yes yes yes!
I am soo excited. I will be in Japan for about a month and a half coming up this summer! My friend Susan and I will be leaving LAX on June 1 for Tokyo baby!!!
ahhh i am so ready to visit everyone and see Japan again! and this time around way more site seeing that is for sure. Last time i was in school and i had a curfew and everything but this time around!! this will be different!!
ok not really. None of those things are going to be taking place but lots of fun cool things will be going down that is for sure!!
And then after I come back from Japan i will be starting up college! finally. Its not too exciting though because i am just going to the community college here in town which is fine.
Things have been up and down these days... I have really been questioning God and my faith a lot these days. I dont know if its good or not but i hope that this trip to Japan will show me some new things and freshen me up and that God will speak some stuff to me. I will be away from all the distractions and old feelings that linger here in my town and in my house. When i am in Japan i am hoping i will get a different perspective on things before i come back. I am in much need of some encouragement because these days i really cant help but look at the lack of stuff i have not been doing and i only see the places where i have screwed up.
hm I am trying to figure out this whole life thing ha ha. How to live day to day when nothing really exciting is happening but learning to enjoy it regardless.
-Pat Current Mood: mellow
|Friday, March 25th, 2005|
hm So I went to LA this weekend and had a swell time. I hung out with my friend Yasayuki and one of his friends Masahiro. It was a good time as it always it with random Japanese people!
we went to the mountains and to the beach and to random Japanese supermarkets. I ate so much this week seriously no joke after the Japanese kids found out that i only weigh 97 pounds they decided that i needed to eat my life away.
hm I have pics but i also hate computers that wont load!! This is the only pic i have.
ya its the only pic i have but damn i am hot.........(sarcasm)
|Tuesday, February 15th, 2005|
|Lord knows i need to update
In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :) What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: artistic
|Friday, February 11th, 2005|
|should update but just a quiz
a stolen quiz
You're the color blue. You have the three c's in
life--you're cool, caring and confident.
Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally
attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic,
but that makes life all the better. You're an
imaginative person who loves sleeping and
dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you
excell in school. You're everybody's favorite,
and this is because you have this undefined
richness in your personality and attitude.
Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very
intelligent. Along with the fact that you're
conservative, you're worried about the
environment. So basically, you're a generous,
dependable and devoted--just the kind of person
everybody needs. Wouldn't it be great if
everybody in the world were like you? What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!) brought to you by Quizilla
|Thursday, December 16th, 2004|
i found my cat Taco in the street just a few hours ago.
man i liked that cat.
I found him maybe 6 months ago on our front porch. He was just a baby and he was all wet and alone so we took him in and kept him.
He was my little buddy but I gave him a nice burial in our backyard.
hm i really hate living on a busy street... Current Mood: sad
|Wednesday, December 15th, 2004|
"wall out pain and you wall out love with it" Current Mood: thirsty
|Tuesday, December 14th, 2004|
Current Mood: amused
You surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. You often daydream. You prefer honesty in your relationships and belive strongly in your personal morals.
Find out your color at Quiz Me!
|Sunday, December 12th, 2004|
well lets see...
it has been quite a while since i late updated so that = updating.
hm life is easy and comfortable these days but i dont want it like that!
So i feel like i am to stay here in V town AKA Visalia California.
Not forever that is for sure! but to tell you the truth i dont know what to do with my life right now, i have a feeling i am to stay here where i have support and friends and family, but i want to travel!
i have no inspiration to go back to college, at least not here in my city.
I have a weird feeling that i should go to a seminary like school here but i have NO IDEA.
these days have been hard and my emotions are all over the place. I feel like i lost a bit of my inspiration and zeal for life, I think about myself and my problems way too much. When i help people or just talk to other people, listen to their problems or spend the time to lift them up in prayer, it helps me.
hm so many things going on these days...
I watch too much TV
I spend too much time not dealing with my thoughts and avoiding them.
I cant help but see what i need to do these days but for some reason i just keep doing the same things
i need to update more often about interesting things instead of me just ranting.
-Pat Current Mood: contemplative
|Thursday, December 9th, 2004|
"were all huddled together like lice in a burning wig"
|Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004|
if i could intravenously pump Eggnog into me i would do so year round. But i guess i must settle with only having it on holidays and having to drink it... hmmmI ♥ Eggnog
hm i am not really looking foward to thanksgiving, I kind of stopped looking foward to holidays way back when my parents got divorced. But this one is going to be very interesting because my dad is coming down to have thanksgiving with My sister and her husband, my brother, my mom, and me. BUT he is bringing with him my grandma my moms ex mother in law and my aunt and her husband and my cousins........o dear lord this is going to be interesting.
"the number 3 should always be followed by the number 14"
best comment ever Current Mood: apathetic
|Saturday, November 20th, 2004|
hind·sight ( P ) Pronunciation Key (h1nd's1t)
1. Perception of the significance and nature of events after they have occurred. Current Mood: blank
|Saturday, November 13th, 2004|
SHOUT YOROKOBE SHOUT SAKEBE
SHOURIWA SUDENI SHUNO MONO!!
DONNA TEKIMO DONNA BUKIMOU
YAKUNI TATANAKU NARU
SHUWA WARERANO SUKUINO IWA
KOHITUJINO CHIDE UCHIKATTA!!!
and in english, the beautiful lyrics reminds us:
Shout for joy! For the Lord has given us the victory!
No weapons formed against us shall prosper!
No kingdon raised against us shall stand!
For the Lord is the ROCK of our Salvation!
And we have overcome by the blood of the Lamb!!! Current Mood: thoughtful
hm has anyone ever talked about something you never have before but know you needed to talk about it because it was eating you up inside? and then after you talk about it you feel so free and happy but also scared too.
I am not really sure what to do with myself right now? how to go on not harboring such a thing only to myself.
|Monday, November 8th, 2004|
hm so i voted and did all that jazz and it seems Bush still won.
I am not mad or anything like that, i am a little disappointedin the American people but i know everyone has their own views and opinions even if i dont agree with them.
Well now that Bush is still the Prez i will be praying for him to do a good job.
nothing has been going on, that is why the lack of updates. There is not much to update on.
I am sure i could think of interesting things to say and make witty observations of everyday life and then write them in my journal but i really dont have the time.
and since i have been home from Japan i have picked up words that i should probably not use so much in everyday vernacular such as:
the over use of Out Of Control
... i use them over and over in one conversation...really not needed, i use hardcore a lot too.....
porque no! Current Mood: pensive
|Sunday, October 31st, 2004|
I talked to my friend Filip from Sweden the other day for a good hour and a half. It was really good, when i was back at school in Japan i shared a room with Filip and 2 other guys but the 2 other guys would always go to sleep early so me and my friend Filip would stay up late by the heater in our room and talk. Man i miss those times but i wont ever forget them.
Today is the American holiday (well i think its mostly only celebrated in the USA) Halloween. I work today 3-6 and then i am meeting up with a group of my friends and we are all going to go hang out. We have nothing planned but we never do so i know we will be entertained.
have a happy Halloween Current Mood: blank
|Tuesday, October 26th, 2004|
hm so i randomly went with my friend Mary to Pismo Beach this last weekend with the Exeter Church of God. Exeter is a small town about 10 min away from Visalia and i dont really know that many people from there. So my friend Mary's brother Travis (My old youth pastor) was speaking at the beach retreat and he wanted me and his sister to go with him to be part of his ministry team, so we got to go for free.
It ended up being a really good time, i thought that it wasnt going to be so fun but it was a good time. I got to hang out in Pismo with some cool people and it was a great time. God did some really cool stuff their too in a lot of young kids hearts and my own.
It was really cool to hang out with my friend Amy who did a DTS the same time i did and was actually in Japan the same time I was but i didnt know her that well back then but I ended up working with her at Keva Juice on her last day of work and we hit it off. She is way cool and it was good to talk to someone who understands how hard it is to readjust back at home once you get back from a DTS. She also loves Japan so it is always good to share Japan stories and our love of Japan.
hm this weekend actually made me stop and look at myself, and i realized that i dont have it all together, i dont have a plan, i dont know what my next step is. But you know what if i had it all together, if i had a plan, if i knew what my next step was why would i need God? Current Mood: so so